have u ever just felt like u where floating in a pool of nothingness? like you where just suspended there in a dark but bright abyss... nothing to smell, see, tastes or feel... just nothing in the large void that has become your life.... but when u close your eyes you see every thing ... and feel every thing....all the pain you have been suppressing for so long that finally u cant hide it any more....and nothing but every thing makes sense .. .and some times after you open your eyes a small part of the dark and bright void fills in...and some of the pain goes away...but as the space between your mind and reality is so far ...every thing begins to feel unreal...